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[August 22, 2008 @ 8:52pm] |
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It really disturbs me, when a person can openly bash other religions and claim outright that they are going to hell at a public fair. Have some respect. The part that truly sickens me, is that there were impressionable young children present, listening to the near "cult-ish" speech this man was raving on about. Now I am in no way opposed to their presence, and support the fact that they have information ready for curious passer-by's, but when you lure kids in with a game and tell them they are going to hell if they are Catholic, Mormon, Lutheran, etc. then that truly pisses me off. At that point I lose absolutely all respect for them.
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| His Grad Date. |
[August 13, 2008 @ 9:58pm] |
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Tommy's grad date is August 22nd, and my last day of work is the 21st! >.< I will most likely fly out on the 22nd and we'll drive back home. And then after a week or two we'll proceed to our next duty station! We still don't have orders. It has been pretty stressful and hectic trying to figure everything out, when you need orders to pretty much do everything. But things have become a little more bearable, at least for the time being! lol. Whatever happens, happens. If in the end a transfer won't work out with Kohl's, then at least I'll know I did all I could, and that's cool. Same goes with anything else. Haha. I really don't feel like typing everything, so that's the basic update. Should get his orders Wednesday at the latest (so they say), so again like I've said many times before, one more week.
And before you know it I'll be gone! :o
p.s.) The Jonas Brothers Rock. ;)
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| In Two Months. |
[July 15, 2008 @ 1:15am] |
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For those of you who don't know already, we will be moving in less than 2 months. We still don't know where yet, but "hopefully" we'll find out in a few weeks. So, if any of you want to get together before we leave, give me a call or just send me a message on here. It'll be for about 2 years, and then after that we'll more than likely head back home, but who knows for sure. There is a possibility we might end up in Everett, which I wouldn't mind at all, but it would be a nice opportunity to experience some place new as well.
Washington is such a beautiful state, and it'll always be my home. Every time I come back from some place else, I always realize how much I love it. Can't beat the cool crisp air after being in sweltering heat. lol.
Btw, I'm going to start playing God of War for the psp soon, so everyone can start chiming in and telling me they're playing it right now (or will be soon). :P
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| Venting. |
[July 10, 2008 @ 11:02am] |
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Why do people always have to come to their own ridiculous conclusions about things they know next to nothing about. My families have to attack each other with untrue thoughts and words, because they believe they are being just or they feel like they have been attacked so they put up their defenses and keep up the stupid cycle. Some people are more adamant and stubborn in the process than others, but it's altogether stupid. Whether you are religious or not, the phrase turn the other cheek would be an amazing thing to do in this situation. Anything else will just fuel the fire. If it doesn't actually get to the other side it will just make you feel more angry and hateful. The more you think like that, the more you justify yourself and how wrong the other person is. Why do we have to feel so much hate? It destroys the perception others have about us, and more importantly our own well-being and health.
And furthermore, nobody believes I influence my own life. Everyone thinks Tommy has to do with every decision I make in my life, whether it be from a positive aspect or a negative one. Just because I'm with Tommy at the time, doesn't mean he ultimately influenced that outcome. All the good things I have accomplished while being with him I've done because "I" wanted to do them. I'm a very stubborn individual and nobody is going to make me do anything I don't want to do. I work hard to get these things accomplished and Tommy gets all the credit, or I make bad decisions (however minimal they may be) and he still gets blamed as the mastermind behind those. I'M A FUCKING INDIVIDUAL PEOPLE! I'm not a byproduct of Tommy Inc.
He's my husband, my "equal." Not my lord and master. He's not my prison ward or my savior or however you choose to look at it. He is the man I choose to love and loves me equally back. We support each other. I don't need saving, nor have I in the past. I'm not helpless. I do things and go places for the experience, not because I need to run away or escape from a horrible home. Both when I was with my mom and now that I'm with Tommy.
Everyone argues, everyone occasionally has stupid fights, but it gets to the point when it's so ridiculous, you feel separated from the whole ordeal. Like, who are you kidding. Grow up. There are more important things to worry about.
I'm not perfect. Tommy is not perfect. My family is not perfect. And his family is not perfect. NOBODY IS PERFECT. Nobody is expected to be. People sometimes forget that we have good and bad sides and focus on one or the other when they see fit.
I love Tommy more than anything, he supports me in my decisions, and I support him in his. We are happy and healthy, and content in each other. And we will do anything for the other person. I just wish everyone could see that, and if they choose not to then please just let us live and be happy.
I love everyone, respect you and all of your opinions, and really appreciate all that you do for me. I would hate to put you out of my life for any period of time, but I'm not going to let you bring me down. I have places to go and people to see.
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[June 17, 2008 @ 10:44pm] |
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| Endurance. |
[May 30, 2008 @ 1:57pm] |
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So, I've been working out every morning for the past week and it feels awesome. I used to really dread the idea of working out, but hopefully I can stick with this routine for awhile. I think I used to set the bar too high and it would quickly turn me off the idea, but now I can keep up and still feel the burn. lol.
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| Darryl Donaldson: Donnie Darko Fan #1 (or Darkon Prime) |
[May 24, 2008 @ 9:04pm] |
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I just watched Donnie Darko the Director's cut with Evelyn, and found this in the extras. It's so hillarious! It was a contest, whoever made the best Donnie Darko fan documentary got their video in the extras of the Director's Cut. Hahaha. If you like the movie, you have to watch this. There is a surprise at the end! lol.
Part 1
Part 2
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| Smack My Bitch Up. |
[May 21, 2008 @ 6:09pm] |
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I bought my tickets this morning to go see Tommy July 3rd-July 7th.
cool.
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| Feelings and stuff. |
[May 09, 2008 @ 11:27am] |
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I've gone a day and a half so far without feeling emotionally distraught and seriously depressed. Yay! I just need to stay positive and busy and maybe get a haircut, that always makes me feel better. Lol. I hate being a whiner, but feeling like that really does suck bad, and I'm glad the brunt of it is over. *huge sigh of relief* I don't see how military wives cope, when their husbands are doing it for a career. I can deal short term, knowing there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but I think I'd go crazy if he was in for that long. You have to be a truly strong person to be a military spouse or be in the military.
It's the constant shifting of normalcy. He leaves, you take time to adjust. When that happens, you live your life for months without him. He comes back, and your life shifts once more. It's a constant back and forth; you have two separate lives which are continually interchanging. It sure does keep you on your toes.
It's not the fact that I "need" him here at all times. He can leave, and after the initial shock I'll be fine. I go to work, spend time with friends and family, and live my life. Of course I "want" him here as much as possible, that goes unsaid. But it's not necessary for me to live a normal life and prosper. But that is just the thing, I love him and I want him to be apart of all the good things in life that happen while he is away.
I love Tommy so much, he is very near and dear to my heart, and the thought of him missing out on so much of my life...our life together...and our future children's lives, well that really breaks my heart. I want him to be there for those monumental moments. Pregnancies, birth, all the little milestones when a child grows. I want him to be apart of it all. I want to raise our kids together, and right now especially just enjoy our marriage.
Of course it wouldn't be the end of the world if he did stay in and all of those things were missed, many people go through it and things turn out fine. It just makes me sad to think of that happening.
Haha. Well, I guess that's enough venting for now. Just some stuff I've thought about. Tommy is such a spectacular person. A truly amazing individual. I love what we have together. It's so normal, and that makes it wonderful. We're not trying to make it something it's not, and that feels great.
Tommy you make me so proud, I haven't said that in awhile, but I want you to know that. You will feel alone so many times in the next couple of years, but I know you'll make the best of it and push through. You'll make friends, and time will eventually pass and you'll be with family again. I love you more than anything, and I'm always here for you.
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| Moving? |
[May 07, 2008 @ 11:27am] |
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I want to move to the Great Lakes area. If I can, why shouldn't I? The only thing I'm waiting on now is to see if Tommy is allowed to live off base with me. If not I still may go out there, but we'll see. Hopefully he should find out today. I'll have to put all our stuff in storage, and then drive out there with puppy, kitty, and a few select items I can fit in my car. (Not a whole lot). We've found a prospective apartment, he just needs to wait until Saturday and go check it out. They close at 6 on weekdays and he doesn't get out until then, or sometimes later. And it's about 20 minutes away, so it doesn't look like he'll have a shot at checking it out any time during the week. It's also 20 minutes away from a Kohl's (in the opposite direction), and they allow animals and have a military clause. Pretty much everything we need, and not a whole lot of places have that! I called 10 places just yesterday and only 2 of them would work, but the other one didn't allow animals and had a minimum of a 3 month lease. So, hopefully if I plan to move, the first one will work out. It's about 585 a month for a studio apartment, but with the pets we'll be paying around 600.
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| Tommy left. |
[May 02, 2008 @ 10:22am] |
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So Tommy is gone. He left at 5am yesterday May 1st, and headed to his first destination (Montana) with his mom, sister, and nephew. They went to visit Grandma and Grandpa Jette, the great grandparents, and Tommy's cousin's Laura and Sierra.
I had to work from 8am to 4:30pm yesterday...that sucked. I really wish I could have gone, but as circumstance had it, it didn't work out that way. Alas, I couldn't ask for more days off two days before leaving. I already got the 4 days before he left covered after the schedule was made. But there's nothing I can do about it now, so that's the end of that.
Even though we had 4 straight days together with no work, it felt more like a day and a half. We went to see Cirque Du Soleil - "Corteo" on Sunday and that was amazing. We had a really good time, but the remaining 3 days flew by too quickly.
I am planning to go visit him for a weekend in July (Independence day weekend to be exact), so that's only 2 months away, and then 2.5 months after that he'll be done and we'll be moving.
That is my update.
April 30th, 2008 - Last day together.
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| Looks like I'm spending my whole summer alone.....(and end of spring....and beginning of fall...) |
[April 18, 2008 @ 7:22am] |
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So, I actually had a look at his orders for myself last night when I came home from work. They were open on the counter, so I looked over them desperate to find some new indication that he might have to stay for more school or be done after the 2.5 months. Well, I did find something new. And pretty significant. His orders actually state that he is to be there approximately 131 days...hmmm...doesn't exactly add up to 2.5 months. More like 4.5!!! WHOA! HELLO?? WTF?
In conclusion, he's going to be gone double the time I thought, and I still can't go with him.
Life sucks.
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| Orders. |
[April 16, 2008 @ 4:49pm] |
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Tommy got his orders today. 2.5 months in Great Lakes. He has to check in May 4th, so he'll probably leave the 1st. I can't go with him since it's only for a short amount of time, but if he has to continue school there I'll have to move after the 2.5 months is done. Otherwise we'll go to his next duty station. So, pretty much either way I'll be moving in 2.5 months. Until then, I have 2 weeks with my husband. :(
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| Frustration. |
[April 11, 2008 @ 9:30am] |
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Still waiting for Tommy's orders. He's supposedly leaving in less than 3 weeks, but if he doesn't get his orders in time that has to change. But say if he does get them in time, but it's a week or less before, then we have a lot of shit to do in a small amount of time. That's even if I can go. It's all pretty stressful. I could be moving in less than three weeks, and who knows if we'll ever be back. To live that is. We'll get stationed somewhere after he goes through school, and what if we really like it there? Of course we'll want to stay. So....Idk, it's all pretty crazy.
I wanted to know for sure if I was going or not so I could leave work a week or so early so I had time to get everything sorted, and spend time with family before we leave. But I don't know what's gonna happen. Ugh...
On another note, I really want to start dancing again. Oh, and our puppy is sick with the "Squirts." And I don't just mean his ugly name. Yes, I've pretty much lost the name battle. A lot of people still call him Kiyoshi, but we don't see them all that often, and Tommy won't let up calling him Squirt. Ugh... Life sucks. lol.
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| Buffy vs. Fray |
[April 09, 2008 @ 9:54pm] |
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Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Time of Your Life
On Sale: 07/02/2008
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